"You Don't Know" - New Poem

I'm not the person you like to think I am
I'm not as strong as I used to claim
I've been left out in the open space
On my own, for so long
Can't see through the darkness
Can't feel through my fears
You don't see how I've changed over the years.

I can still recall the times when you let me down
When you told the truth and went back on your word
You didn't know me as well as you thought you did
You didn't see the bigger part of me that I had kept so well hid
You thought my words were my truth
But my words were because I couldn't trust you
You don't see the fear you've placed inside of me.

You don't see the way that you changed me
You don't see the way it affected me
You don't know my solitary confinement was caused by you
You don't know how hard it was for me to pull through
You don't understand why I don't consider you a good friend
You don't understand why I'm glad you're not here to lend a hand
You don't think that I can remember the truth of your judgement
You don't think I can recall the moment you turned your back on me
It didn't take much, but that raised hand was all you had to do
You don't know why I've never been the same around you.

I thought I was alone in this world and for a while, maybe I was;
I found out that your friendship was a lie, the blame was on me
For being the kind of person you didn't expect me to be
I heard every rumour and every lie; you had no alibi
Out of fear and anxiety, I tried to hide
You were on my case, trapping me into your web
That led me to be prosecuted by judgement and constant bullying
No-one came to my aid and my feelings were hidden in a book
Writing songs was my outlet to dodge all of those uncomfortable looks.

I remember it clearly and it still hurts me to this day
I look at you all now and I recall your smiles when they were faked
But I got through and it wasn't with your help
I've got new friends now who are fine with the cards I've been dealt
They are the truest friends that friends can be
When they speak to me, they speak with honesty
You weren't there
You didn't care...

You don't know me as well as you thought you did
You don't know why I did the things I did
You don't know
You don't know...

Copyright 2010 - Written by: Candice Clark
Inspired by: "You Don't Know" performed by Westlife